I've come back, I'm not dead! *Laughs hoarsely
I thought about not coming back, once or twice. Just leaving it at that. Maybe someone would look back after a year or so and think "Remember that one blogger? What is she doing now? Maybe she just...ceased to exist.."
Happy New Year! Right now it's 12/31/21, 15 more minutes until this year exists only in memory. I read my journal from this year, it was pretty bad. Looking back on the entries over the year, and cringing at my scribbled writing, I thought to myself, "When did I stop loving life? When did I wake up in the morning with the purpose just to survive?" Then that got me thinking about life, how pretty soon I'll be out in the real world. I'm still not sure what I want to do "when I grow up".
Well anyway, my point is that I don't feel particuarly satisfied with how I've spent the past teenage years. This past year just seems like a waste, because It'll all be over soon, and I want to enjoy it while it last.
This year I want to enjoy it while it lasts.
I want to dress the way I want. I want to listen to music all the way up. I want to love God obviously and shamelessly. I want to not be afraid of people and myself anymore. I want to do crazy stuff and live a life I won't forget.
So when I take out my new journal for this year, I grab a sharpie and I write:
2022 - A Year to Remember
My Resolutions
-Do Yoga again
-Get good on my Skateboard
-Lisense
-Be somebody who makes everyone feel like a somebody
-Get a car??
-Idk maybe enjoy life
-Blog
-Write
-Write more songs
